I am in an abusive relationship?

i know you probably wont like this but realistically, you should leave him. this isn't what a relationship should be like. your guy should be there for you and actually comfort you. he only has himself in mind and doesnt seem to care much about how you feel. he should be wanting to give you whatever you want, not just taking from you. there is a possibility that your situation can get worse if you dont do anything. normally i would think that talking about it would be a good idea but im not too sure in your situation as he might get upset. it was very big of you to post this and i think it was a good idea. best of luck